Catch this. . . . .
. . . . Awhile ago I asked about the insincere personas. And my resolution came later in the understanding that the story itself, though perhaps painful, still holds personal identity. And that the mind would take that over its own dissolution.
Tonight another perspective also emerged.
I don't always know what the lesson will be. But, I always know what the lesson will be about, and that is me.
If that sounds self absorbed you are seeing it backwards. And also most likely, inside out.
So given that vantage point, it becomes clear that the lesson is the realization that personalities don't actually love anybody or anything, ever. Personalities want something.
What Loves, is much-much deeper.
Deep enough to have words serve only as barriers. And ideas-thoughts become painful distractions which steal your time* from the scene present before you at that moment. And as I become more aware of that fact, that pain becomes more prominent, and recognition of it comes much faster.
*(Steal your time, create it, same-same)
So back to what is now, I am here.*
*(Warning: Any expression of Matt's personality is a direct indication of a desire for something, and therefore occurs out of need. But only ever yours. Matt's personality has been shown to be harmful in large doses, so please stick with doctor recommended dosage. Though Matt's personality is sometimes absent, this is not an indication of an enlightened state, but rather may simply be a sign of fatigue. In the event of sudden realization matt's personality may become absent, in which case the makers of Matt's personality assume no responsibility for any harm this product may cause.)
A great friend said in greeting:
You must be in a spin, how does it 'feel'?
And that's an awesome question, and greeting.
I sat for a moment and felt it, and answered:
I don't really know? It feels like I have fewer and fewer inches beneath my feet that I can stand on, and pretty soon I am just gonna fall I don't know where?
But I know I want to find out.
Tonight another perspective also emerged.
I don't always know what the lesson will be. But, I always know what the lesson will be about, and that is me.
If that sounds self absorbed you are seeing it backwards. And also most likely, inside out.
So given that vantage point, it becomes clear that the lesson is the realization that personalities don't actually love anybody or anything, ever. Personalities want something.
What Loves, is much-much deeper.
Deep enough to have words serve only as barriers. And ideas-thoughts become painful distractions which steal your time* from the scene present before you at that moment. And as I become more aware of that fact, that pain becomes more prominent, and recognition of it comes much faster.
*(Steal your time, create it, same-same)
So back to what is now, I am here.*
*(Warning: Any expression of Matt's personality is a direct indication of a desire for something, and therefore occurs out of need. But only ever yours. Matt's personality has been shown to be harmful in large doses, so please stick with doctor recommended dosage. Though Matt's personality is sometimes absent, this is not an indication of an enlightened state, but rather may simply be a sign of fatigue. In the event of sudden realization matt's personality may become absent, in which case the makers of Matt's personality assume no responsibility for any harm this product may cause.)
A great friend said in greeting:
You must be in a spin, how does it 'feel'?
And that's an awesome question, and greeting.
I sat for a moment and felt it, and answered:
I don't really know? It feels like I have fewer and fewer inches beneath my feet that I can stand on, and pretty soon I am just gonna fall I don't know where?
But I know I want to find out.
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